Finally!!

Today's the day!
The sun is shining...her cast came off!!
I think she was more excited than I was to be honest with you.
After wearing her "banaid" for 4 long weeks today it came off!
Usually Abby takes her time but not this morning!
She was dressed, had her hair done (she even kept it up for an hour!!) and had breakfast and was sitting at the door itching to get out.
Awesome if we were running late...
But we had an hour to kill!!
So, we took one last picture...


This was the adorable mask that she had to wear while we were at the cast clinic in the hospital ...thank you H1N1.
(I had to wear one too but mine wasn't as cute!!)


Granted..wearing a mask turned out to be a good thing!
The whole appointment that I was told to expect 2 hours for only took 30 minutes!
She sure is happy with it off!
Wouldn't you agree?

Shesh, get out from under that rock!

Seriously,
I have had enough of this rollercoaster ride!
I just want to sit on the bench with my bucket of carmel popcorn and have a little break. Some "me time"
Is that too much to ask?
Yeah, you would think so right?
Wrong...
We have been swamped!

A few of the highlights since I am literally sneaking in computer time here while I wait for Big Daddy to get home from work.

*Mr.D caught a horrible cough and the thoughtful little boy he is shared it with his little sister who then shared it with me.
(grabs tissue and wipes overly sore nose)
Thankfully I have the option of an early bedtime and perhaps I will even will and for go The Biggest Loser tonight..maybe..the vote is still out on that one.

*Giggles caught a tummy bug the night before her cast was to come off and because of all the "H1N1 drama" we were reschedualed for tomorrow morning.
Did I mention that I just want to put her in the tub and scrub her?
Well, I do.
I want her to sit in the tub and let her play with all her bath toys until she is wrinkled and then I will slather that arm of hers with smelly lotion.

* I feel like I have been on a little bit of an emotional overload this week.
My "due date" is quickly approaching but sitting on this side of it, honestly it sucks. I know there will be no baby to bring home because of the miscarriage. Every time I have been out this week I have seen either newborn babies or pregnant momma's to be and instead of the happy person I normally am, I turn the other way and pretend that I don't see. Honesty, that one is pretty hard to do when you hear the hollering of a newborn but for my sanity and Big Daddy's I did. Two more days..I can survive two more days right?

Thankfully I know the promises that my father has for me and I know that he will lift me up this week.
I don't have to hide.
But sometimes, it's best not to post when all I have to share with you all is blah garbage.

And besides, I totally forgot to take picture of my Birthday Manicure/Pedicure so I couldn't even share that!!
**sigh**

Tell me a story..

Because the one that keeps repeating over and over in my head is one I wish I could close the book on.
Shove it under the bed and let the dust bunnies get it.
I hate that I can't. But I sure wish I could.
I hate that 7 months ago my little one went to be with Jesus.
I hate that my due date is almost here and I will have empty arms on the day that it does.
I don't know what that day will look like.
Now don't get me wrong.
This isn't a pity party.
There are mothers who have gone thru much much worse than I have.
I'm just trying to sort out these emotions before they over run me.
I still have the pregnancy test tucked away.
Why I am keeping it I don't know but it's the only thing I have to tell me that it was real.
That the pain I felt was real.
But the healing I have experienced has helped numb the pain.
I know with time it will go away.
I'm just not sure when.

Today is pregnancy and infant loss awareness day.
Tonight at 7 there will be candles lit all over the country as parents remember.
I just wish that I wasn't one of them.
But I am.
Please join me in remembering all the babies who have gone too soon, including my own sweet little baby.
And hug a loss momma...heaven knows we need it!

Then there was a purple...

Cast!!
Giggles took a tumble down the stairs on Wednesday and it took until yesterday afternoon to get everything sorted out.
She has a "buckle fracture" so she is now sporting this beautiful purple cast for the next two weeks.
I think she likes it.
What do you think?

God's Fingerprints

We have seen them.
All over our lives for the past two weeks.
Maybe it was because our backs were up against the wall.
But, we have seen them.
All over our lives.

I have been listening...

I just finished my first week of homework for the bible study "living Beyond Yourself" exploring the fruits of the spirit.
Through my quiet time with God I have been listening..
I love it when I can bury myself in his word and quiet my heart long enough to hear him speak to me.
Usually I keep what I hear to myself.
Wrap my arms around it and protect what I have heard and not utter a word to anyone but this post is on his prompting.
I guess someone else needs to hear this too...

a joy unspeakable and full of Glory that cannot be affected by outside circumstances.
He will show me how.
Let Him teach you what is best for you.
I direct you in the ways you should go.
Pay attention to my commands!
Don't be a people pleaser- keep your heart, mind and eyes on me!
I already have something great prepared for you!
Enjoy the hear and now.
Stop trying to plan every detail of your life- I already know what's going to happen next.
Trust me!
I am the covering for your guilt and the armor for your victory.
I do not change.
You change.
You fail me.
Deny me.
Desert me.
Choose someone else over me.
Make choices that break my heart but...
you will always be my treasured possession.

Miss me?

maybe just a little?
Are you wondering what has had me so pre-occupied that I haven't had a chance to check in?
Me too!
(just kidding)
Life is back in the swing of things.
We are busy with back to fall activities and honestly, I haven't even had a chance to get much done around here and for that I am sorry.
There have been some bla days.
Day's where I don't even want to get out of bed or open my mouth but I am learning something pretty amazing.
God can change my mood.
Even if I am really wanting to be angry he can soften my heart and make me smile.
How crazy is that!
What have you been up to?
Has God taught you anything lately?