March 26, 2009

..has it really been two weeks?

Since "goodbye" was uttered before I even had a chance to say "hello"?
I feel like my body betrayed me.
But deep down I know that isn't true.

I feel washed in a wave sadness and anger all mixed together creating this emotional roller coaster ride from hell. I want off this crazy
I don't want to hear reasoning's that don't take away the pain.
I just want my baby back.
I don't want to forget but I don't want to remember either.
None of this makes any sense but I have to release this pain before it turns me into something that I am not.

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Violet said...

I'm right there with you honey. I had an "angry day" today. It's not fair, it's just not fair. lots of love.

Unknown said...

So sorry to hear of your loss Heather. Hugs.

Unknown said...

Hi, I came across your blog through the mom blogs. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I can imagine how you are feeling as I went through this in Dec. of 07. I will say a prayer for your healing. Take care and my sympathies are with you

Kara said...

Thinking of you. I'm so sorry your going through this.